Rest of April

My new company is an amazing company and I feel incredibly fortunate to have the opportunity to work for them. I'm especially grateful that I was hired while pregnant and that the benefits package is so good that I do get 6 to 8 weeks paid leave. That's so rare these days. However, the job continues to be a bit challenging. I think I'm realizing that the company is growing really fast and restructuring at the same time, which has put a lot on the account managers. I think the other element is that I've been doing the same thing for 10 years and this is totally different...sorta. Distribution, but all points of distribution for hotels. It's really interesting to take it all in, but I find I am frustrated trying to remember all the processes and points that need to be touched in any given situation from a customer. From new hotels to using a highly customized version of SF.com, some days are really tough. Throw in an emotional pregnant lady and some days are SO not pretty. Some days have been exhausting. I also have a hard time working for this woman I report to. She seems to micromanage. Copy her on all emails? Lordy! be realistic!

I am finding that I'm becoming really bitter not seeing my family. Especially my mom and my sister. My sister seems to come and go to Reno and can't find time to stop when she has no choice but to pass my exit every time she is in town. Chip tells me to let it go, but it's not easy to know that we moved here for more support and it just hasn't happened. Lately I understand about my mom not being here because she was hired as a temp for the census. I'm excited for her because I know she can do it and be an independent person. She has struggled since my dad passed. Struggled in every aspect. Hopefully this will be a long enough term to help get things in order. I often wish I could do more for her. It's also a shame that when someone dies and doesn't have insurance that basically if the spouse didn't work that it's very difficult. Of course any sort of assistance takes forever if you're not in the system. It's rough.

April also brought a very pleasant surprise. J.F.'s mom reached out to me. I was surprised and happy. A few years ago she reached out as well and I wasn't ready and told her so. Now times are different, the girls are older and it's a much better time and place to have J.F.'s family in my life and in the girl's lives. They do need to know their family. To what extent I'm not sure yet, but they do need to know a select few. It has been really nice to begin to build a relationship. I'm not sure how to integrate this new relationship into the girl's life, but we'll find a way. It was surprising to hear the voice of support. For that I'm grateful. We'll see how things go as we communicate more. That looks like it might be a very good thing!